Some Many Questions for One Week

Isn't this supposed to be a peaceful time in my life? Aren't i supposed to be having fun and relaxing? Then why am i stressed? Exams are coming up in the next week and i don't think i'm going to do well. These exams will make or break some of my grades. Oh yea did i also mention that guys stress me out? If a guy flirts with you and you flirt back doesn't it mean he likes you? I thought that was the rule but if things have changed will someone please tell me. This is my life moving at the Speed of Sound.

Losing is the Worst Feeling

Why do people get the one thing that i want? This is the second time in two weeks that I've lost. I can't handle any more losses or else i may just go insane. My two friends that i pushed to run won instead of me. How is this fair? I love them to death but how is this fair to me? I want to be involved in school but i can't seem to get a break. I don't think I'll run next year because I'm afraid of losing. I don't like the feeling of losing. It feels like someone kicked me in the stomach and it doesn't feel to good. I know i can relay on my friends to get me through this cause I'm in a slump. I just need this school year to be over so i can relax and focus on enjoying life. This is my life moving at the Speed of Sound.

Can't be Tamed, Changed, or Rearranged

While listening to my Ipod today i started thinking........why do people want to change me? Am i not "perfect"? Some people need to realize that i change for no one. If you like me fine. If not then don't waste your time trying to put me down. I'm stronger then most people think. I may feel down at times but I brush the dirt off and get right back up. As the school year is coming to an end I've realized that i can't please everyone and it's okay if i lose. When I lose and get hurt it teaches me to lean on the people that matter most and to weed out the people who aren't there for me. I don't need the fakers, the backstabbers, or the phonies. Those people don't need to be in my life. I hope that sophomore year goes more smoothly then this year did, with no drama, no issues, just pure bliss. I'm not hoping for perfection just pure fun. This is my life, moving at the speed of sound.